on expectations

When I fall down You pick me up,
When I am dry You fill my cup,
You are my all in all.

You are my All in All. The last many months have been leading me to this. The Lord has been showing me how often I look to others to have my needs met, pouring expectations and disappointment into my relationships. There's nothing wrong with communicating our needs to others, but I am overwhelmed with the sense that for me, in this time and space, God wants me to go to Him for Everything. He is All. All I could ever dream of, ever need. I think about the freedom that would result. Freedom for me, for my loved ones. I could love selflessly, without secretly desiring reciprocation. Give fully, knowing that He will fill my cup to overflowing. They can walk their own walk, where love can come naturally. Where they can fall and fail and then find in me a heart that welcomes and forgives. How I want to love like that!